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May 10, 2014

Visual Diary: Rainy Days, Petit Palais, and other Life Things

The past couple weeks have been quite drizzly, blustery, and chilly. I find that time seems to be passing more quickly and naturally now - I've stopped counting the passing weekends, and stopped feeling panicky about the unknown future. The residence card should be in the works as we speak, and I've got a babysitting job lined up for the fall. I've even managed to pick up a little side job for a couple months, which will fund both my student loan payments due in June, as well as my summertime-BFF-Spain trip planned for August. I am far from having everything figured out, but who ever really does?





I was walking through a long, conveyor-belt strip in the Montparnasse metro station a while back, and noticed an advertisement that stretched the entire length of the tunnel. The Paris metro always contains ads for spectacles and temporary art exhibitions, and this particular one was adorned with Belle Epoque images of the Eiffel Tower, World's Fair, Toulouse-Lautrec posters, the Moulin Rouge... basically the quintessential historical Paris. I know I had to see the exhibition asap, because that's my time period! It was housed within the gorgeous Petit Palais and had a wide variety of both art and "cultural artefacts," if you will. Photographs, posters, paintings, garments, books, furniture, an Art Nouveau metro archway, you name it. I tried to get pictures of things, but the lighting is always impossibly low in these kind of exhibitions. We failed to buy advance tickets online to avoid the line, but in the end managed to pick a good day and only waited in the queue for about 25 minutes, and ate some pastries to pass the time!






This week was the first of my new short-term babysitting gig, so I've been out of the house more often than usual, and have focused less on my blog. However, I have been working on a new wordpress-based site design that I'm really excited about! I have a vision for this blog, one that reaches out into other realms, and I really feel that I can achieve this vision if I just keep working at it a little everyday.



Married life has also been especially excellent as of late. I've had a pessimistic, jaded, fearful view of marriage for many years, but I'm happy to say that our relationship at the moment is blatantly defying every single one of those apprehensions. I love everything about this guy, and regardless of what I do with my life, at least I have this really weird, funny, caring person next to me. <3 I will cherish this Instax photo for the rest of my life:


À bientôt mes amies!

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April 22, 2014

Places I once knew



The other day, I revisited my old neighbourhood. Just walking down that familiar street brought memories that had entirely faded from my brain, rushing back with clarity. I remembered small, impossible details like what my friend ordered that time we ate at the café downstairs, the happy conversation I had with the nearby florist, discussing the contents of paté with my Mother when she visited, shopping for a tiny christmas tree with my best friend, the nearby church I had visited when I was at my lowest... I could go on for days.

But instead of making me happy, these memories just made me sad. I spent the rest of the day mulling over why sadness was my first reaction, and I still haven't quite figured it out.

Older Chests by Damien Rice on Grooveshark

What struck me was the familiar feeling of the weather. When I surfaced from the metro that very first early-autumn day in Paris, the skies were clear and blue, with some happy clouds, the sun was warm, but there was a slight chill in the air. And when I returned, a year and a half later, on a beautiful spring day, it felt so similar. How can everything look and feel the same, yet you've changed so much?

I started wondering who lives in my apartment now. Are they also a student, do they love it as much as I did, what place in the world did they travel from to arrive here in Paris? Do the people I walked past everyday still live in this neighbourhood? And even more than that - did my presence in this minuscule corner of the universe make any impression? Does a part of me still linger here?

I thought about my hometown, how even though I love the desert landscape and spending time with my family in our cozy house, I always end up feeling a little melancholy whenever I return. It's like the puzzle piece (me) doesn't quite fit comfortably anymore, and even though I am somewhat bothered by the awkwardness, there's nothing I can do to change that.

My mind then began to wander; what makes ME who I am? Is it the collective experiences, people, and places I've encountered? The spaces I've inhabited? The things I eat, the conversations I've had, the relationships and heartbreaks I've endured?

I don't think I'll ever come to discover a final version of myself - I truly feel like being human, by definition, is a constant transformational experience. Although I've always sought change in my life, never wanting to become boring or stagnant, I sure do have a hard time coping with the passage of good times.

Maybe the memories of my old Parisian apartment make me sad because I associate that time of my life with a better version of myself - a version with more passion and actual goals. Maybe I'm glorifying the past, and maybe I need to stop doing that.


“Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final”

― Rainer Maria Rilke


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April 20, 2014

April Outfit and Face of the Day



Today, I'm bringing you a quick outfit-of-the-day. I don't do these very often, partly because it's a tiny bit out of my comfort zone, but also because my wardrobe is relatively minimal at the moment, since I moved to France with only 1.5 suitcases in tow. I was looking back on my outfit posts within the last few months, and I realised they all look the same: Black, gray, and my one colour of choice, burgundy. Although I completely believe in the idea of a "capsule" wardrobe, where the mixing-and-matching possibilities are endless, it doesn't make for the most varied outfit posts.

With warmer weather around the corner, and skinny jeans becoming less of a prevalent trend, I decided to add some lighter pieces into my wardrobe, and this lace dress is one of them. I also got some loose-fitting trousers that are basically constructed like pajama pants, a peach coloured blouse, and a floral kimono. I really feel like just these few pieces transform my wardrobe!

Originally, this white dress was going to be the dress I wore for our elopement to NYC, but I just couldn't bring myself to get married in a dress that cost 12 euro from Forever21, which is why I eventually found a better quality dress for the special day!

I paired this dress with my burgundy (once again) moto jacket from Target. I think dresses that are fitted at the waist look best with a shorter-length top layer. It was a sunny, yet crisp spring day, so I kept my legs bare but bundled up my neck with a super fuzzy scarf from Zara. It really felt strange to have my legs free, as I've been wearing black pants as a staple for months upon months upon months!

Outfit Details
Dress: Forever21
Jacket: Target
Shoes: Forever 21
Scarf: Zara

I'm adding another element to the typical OOTD, and showing you my FACE of the day, inspired by those beauty bloggers out there! I was feeling very peachy today, so I used some warm, luminescent blush, a rose-gold eyeshadow, coral lip butter, and natural-looking foundation, so that my nose freckles showed through.

Foundation: Dior Forever
Blush: Benefit blush in Sugarbomb
Eyeshadow: Rimmell Glam'eyes in 019 Sun Safari
Lips: Revlon Colorburst Lip Butter in 015 Tutti Frutti

I often find myself thinking about what focus I want this blog to take and even the level of dedication I'm willing to make. I really don't foresee me creating many outfit or beauty posts, but I think they provide a bit of a personal touch to my blog, so I think I'll continue to do them... once a month perhaps? I much more enjoy writing about my experiences, travels, thoughts, and artists I find across the internet. Who knows, that may change in the future, but I like that I have the freedom to make this internet space whatever fits me best. :) I would absolutely love to start a YouTube channel as well! I see these YouTubers and Bloggers out there who are super successful, and make a career out of this, and I would absolutely love to do what they do. I just don't see how it could happen. I suppose it comes in small steps... but that's probably better saved for a separate post!

Until next time.


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April 9, 2014

Found Objects of April


Things have been relatively quiet over here lately. I've been running small errands around Versailles and quietly searching out new inspirations to keep me feeling interested and alive, and some of the things that keep me going are the creations of other humans: blogs, artist portfolios, new music, etc. There's an entire world of creativity that exists and thrives on the internet, I'd even say that the interwebs, at least for those who have access to it, has become integrated into our very concept of reality - or at least has become an expression of it. Today, you can see nearly the entire world from your computer screen, things that you wouldn't have seen otherwise. I think it's so amazing - so let me share some of what I've found with you.

I've titled this new series "Found Objects" because each link or tid-bit or song is something I've stumbled upon whilst strolling through the internet, much like found-objects within artistic practice are discovered: by chance.

First, is this playlist I've assembled for you. For the past year or so, I've been enamoured with electronic anthems that get the blood pumping, but lately none of that has felt right. I haven't listened to any music at all, since I wasn't sure what I liked, or what felt like me anymore. I think we all go through seasons and changes in life, and I feel like I'm just now starting to discover what my next season will feel like. Instead of the electro-hip vibe I've been ruminating in since my first stay in Paris, I've been hearkening back a bit more towards my high-school indie-ish loves - think Elliot Smith, Radiohead's In Rainbows album, Damien Rice, and The Frames. Many of the songs below, however, have an electronic element. Most are picked from albums that are genre-bending, slightly strange, a bit dark, and best listened to full-length and meditatively through good-quality headphones (or loudly in a car, a luxury I no longer have here in France).
April 9th 2014 by Hannah Wilson on Grooveshark

Next, is Olivia Rae James, who has a photography portfolio and blog that are overflowing with gorgeous photography. The kind of photography that is both visually stunning, yet easy-to-understsand. She captures the real magic of everyday scenes. No scene is over-aggrandized, yet everything she captures enchants the eye.

Culture Keeper is where Jonathan Randall Grant assembles the experiences, collaborations, vision, and imagery of his life. He shares his unique and uncomplicated perspective with others, and I love his honest writing style. It is not a typical, run-of-the-mill site, and he is not a typical person - and that's what makes it so nice to explore.

Anomie is an online shop, recently opened by a young lady called Chelsea, who does a mighty fine job of assembling a superb collection of homewares, accessories, and clothing that are entirely handmade. Most of the brands she stocks are small, start-up companies. She also has a little YouTube channel called ChelseaWears, and she's a delightful person!


I really enjoyed putting together this post. I think I'll make a habit of it every month, if I remember, that is ;)

Until next time.

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March 23, 2014

Perhaps the Most Romantic Spot in Paris, and Week Highlights

This week's highlights have been defined by one thing: The SUNSHINE! I don't think one fully understands the positive affects of that heavenly burning ball of gas, high up in the sky, until you live somewhere that experiences rain more than three times per year. Not only sunshine, but also sorbet, a new work opportunity, an American diner, and perhaps the most romantic spot in Paris. A big claim to make, I realise, but keep reading, people. Keep reading.

Last Sunday, a friend and I had brunch at Rose Bakery, a Franco-British establishment with a few locations around Paris. It's been quite hyped up in "hipster circles" (for lack of a better term), and for good reason. The façade and interior are unassuming and comfortable, the food feels hearty, simple, and of good quality. That morning, I had a cappuccino, a pear cranberry muffin, and a quiche. The muffin wasn't all sugar, and the quiche differed from French quiches in that it was square-shaped and had a sturdier crust. Only got a snapshot of the pretty foam on my cappuccino.

After brunch, we took a trip to the flea market at St. Ouen. I hadn't planned on coming, so without having any idea of what I was looking for, I left with nothing. In in all honesty, it's quite overpriced. We had a fun time admiring all the crazy things, though. There's even a little brasserie embedded within the open-air, alley-section of the market, and that afternoon we heard some live French music emanating from inside.

Next stop that Sunday was, of course, ice cream. How can you say no to ice cream? The lines at every single retailer of Berthillon on Île-Saint-Louis was lengthy, but the wait was so worth it. I went for my usual salted caramel, but changed it up a bit with an extra scoop of Mango sorbet. On our way across a bridge and down to the riverbank, a strange man asked us for a taste of our ice cream cones... "je peux goûter, je peux goûter?" I responded with a strong "NON" and a highly protective arm gesture. Don't mess with my ice cream! Do you see the dense line of people chilling on the river bank? The sun really lures the people out.



We just couldn't bear to end our sunny day there, so we hopped on a bus to Luxembourg, and had a walk-through. No joke, every single park seat was occupied. Even the section of grass that people are permitted to sit on was packed full with grass-loungers. The diffused sunlight cast long shadows of the trees on the ground.



Fast forward to Thursday, when I had my first experience in a new opportunity. I don't want to call it an internship, because that's not what it is. Officially, it's something of an "exchange." An exchange of my time for use of their space. It's at an art gallery, allows me to learn about a portion of the art market, take on small projects, and in the meantime, build up a reference for the future. It's nothing fancy or too interesting, but at least it's something to fill up my time and to build up my resumé ever so slightly. The gallery is near my old neighbourhood and very close to the Eiffel Tower, so it's a lovely area to visit once a week. I took this picture below in the Champs de Mars during a little walk I had nearby.


Fast forward once again to this Saturday, when I met a couple friends for a traditional American diner brunch and some more island-time. Breakfast in America is the perfect place for lost expats and homesick university exchange students. This time around I had an omelet with potatoes, a root beer, and a slice of pecan pie! Ellen and I (both American) invited my new Serbian acquantance along for a little slice of America; it's always so fun to show other cultures some of your home country!

The most amazing thing happened that day. When we surfaced from the metro, the skies were horribly gray, the weather was cold, and the wind was strong, but upon exiting the diner, the skies had suddenly become a bright blue canvas filled with white pillow-clouds.

Charles Dickens really sums it up: “It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade.”

We walked through a nearby park, meandered down a narrow street, and ended up at Notre Dame, once again. I seriously should branch out! I always end up right at the islands somehow!






Since I hadn't been there since last Fall, I said to Ellen, "Let's go check out this little park at the tip of this island!" So - we did. If I had been there with Erik, we definitely would have been one of the many couples being cute and cuddly on the river banks. The park covers the triangular tip of the island, with paved space all around to sit, legs dangling over the sloped edge. If the temperature was a bit warmer, a blanket, a bottle of wine, and some sandwiches would have been in order. I think the best part about this section of the Seine were the the romantic weeping willows - it's no coincidence that Taylor Swift films a bulk of her "Begin Again" video under these very willows, it's just so damn romantic. Combined with the unreal sky, it was too much to handle.





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March 10, 2014

Plans Fail: A Sudden Trip to New York City

Moving to France to eat croissants and macarons all day might sound “easy” or “spontaneous,” but it actually takes a lot of planning and, how do I put it? …logistical manoeuvres. There are a few ways to get here: as a student, as a student/au pair, as a worker, or as the family member of a European person. The option that made the most sense for Erik and I was to become family members, i.e.: get married.

Up until last week, we had been planning on marrying in Sweden, Erik being a Swede and all. We had the tickets bought, we had plans for me to finally meet his family, and we were about to leave in less than a week. However, when we found out that some documents we sent hadn't been deemed "official" enough, we had to make a sudden change of plans. It’s not like we have all the time in the world, either - there’s a definite timeline to apply for residency, which is constantly hanging over my head.

Our solution? New York City.




It was certainly a lot of fun, but it was also really stressful. I was born American, but in many ways, New York felt like a foreign country. After attempting to walk from the Empire State Building up to Central Park, I realised that this is NOT a city made for sightseeing walks; it’s overwhelmingly expansive. In Paris, all you have to do is pick a street - any street - and it will be beautiful or charming or interesting in some way. New York requires a lot more city knowledge. New York also feels much grittier - rougher. I would imagine that the typical New Yorker is generally a tougher kind of person.

Spring Street
NYC Streets
Chinatown View
NYC Public Library
Bundled Up
{IT WAS COOOOOLD!}

The day we got married was the coldest we experienced during our 5-day trip, and although my bare legs were frozen, the bright sunshine and clear skies made up for it. The Manhattan City Clerk’s Marriage Bureau was quite lovely: nothing over the top, but quite a few steps up from the DMV for sure. Some of the other government buildings nearby were pretty impressive and made for a good picture of us :D
to the Courthouse
Bride with Bouquet
Newlyweds 2
Newlyweds
Cold Wedding Day
We had some great pizza at Lombardi's, saw the city from the Rockafeller building, took some taxis, admired some fire escapes, went to a couple great bars, explored the Metropolitan Museum, strolled through Central Park, and best of all, GOT MARRIED!
Lombardi's
Pizza, Yum
From the Top
NYC
Brooklyn Heights
From the Brooklyn Bridge
Bar 9
Central Park in Winter
Central Park Ice Rink
Central Park Bridge
Lower Manhattan with Bridge
The Met - Paintings
The Met - Statue and Coffered Ceiling
I’m so excited to be home. Although I wouldn’t say that France feels like home by any stretch of the imagination, when I’m with somebody I love, I feel secure. When you’re out in the big world, within endless urbanscapes that swallow you up in machine dust and human grime, in a place where you feel sick, tired, scared, and confused, the best remedy possible is to have someone by your side.
Hug



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